I Wish I Had Your Number

A few years ago, I was preparing to move from Michigan to California. Although David and I had toured extensively with our family (two toddlers, at the time), it was going to be our first move to a new home out of state. I remember trying to envision our life in California. Especially of concern was our future community life. I asked God specifically for, "a friend who also knows about the music business." Well, that prayer was answered abundantly!

Within a year of moving to California, AC Lorenzo became one of my dearest friends. AC absolutely loved music, he was a former member of a hugely popular boy band, he had toured all over the world, he was deeply spiritual, his friendships were rich in meaning, and he saw symbolism in everything that happened to him. He was undeniably the person I had been praying for! Unbeknownst to me, AC had also been praying for a friend to connect with on a deeper level.

Although he passed suddenly and unexpectedly, I'm left with peace when I think of him now. Even in the midst of sadness, the gift of his love remains! Nothing was left unsaid, between AC and me. I asked myself, the day I learned of his death, "What would I tell him, if I could now?" And I realized, to my surprise: there wasn't anything I needed to add. And vise versa! I didn't need to hear anything more, to be sure of his brotherly care for me.

As my latest song attests, I do wish I had AC's number. I miss talking to him, and being able to call him at the drop of a hat. And yet, because of God's gift of friendship between us, I believe somehow we're still connected. The answered prayer continues to be a blessing, through this peace in my soul. Even the day of his funeral--though soaked with tears--was filled to the brim with joy and laughter and friendship (as you can see from our picture at the funeral luncheon)!

To AC: I miss you, my friend! See you again soon.

Amanda